“Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn’t look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I’m not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns
All I have, all I need, he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I’m searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I’ll breathe again
I’ll breathe again.”
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I am not one to do blogger challenges but I felt the need to do this one for many reasons. This is possibly the hardest post to write so bare with me.
I have chosen this song because when I was listening to it, the words had hit me hard, I knew this song was the one for me and I went through many songs, I was getting to the point of being stumped on the song for this post.
When you need something to believe in, start with yourself..
In my life, I have come across many strange and wonderful things, a lot of heartbreak, a lot of love and a lot of anger. All the things that have happened to me in the past have made me into the person that I am today. I wouldn’t say I am the easiest person to deal with but I am not perfect either, and neither is anyone else. We all have our flaws and boy I know mine very well. I am thankful for many things, I am thankful for my family in Second Life, I am thankful for my friends and I am thankful for everyone that I adore and love is near me. This week, just proved to me once again, how short life can be.
In my journeys across SL I have met some truly wonderful people and some not so great people, it saddens me to see people that can sit behind a screen and pick on others. It saddens me even more to those who play the victim card and twist facts into fiction. Then there are those people who never listen to both sides of the story and assume. Assumptions has always been said to be the mistake of someone’s belief, I do not like to assume so I prefer to ask and sometimes when I ask, it upsets people but at least you know the truth right?
The first to apologise is the bravest,
the first to forgive is the strongest,
and the first to forget is the happiest…
I like to think I am easy going person and I have a good heart, I try to be there for my family and friends because they mean everything to me but I have been told or heard from others in the past that have been said about me, so I need to let go of the judgment that have been made against me, and realize that those who know me and do not judge me are the ones around me because they are the ones that matter. I tend to not judge people for what I have been told about them or from I have heard. I prefer to get to know people for my own eyes and ears. Never judge a book by its cover.
I need to try and learn not to let others bring me down. This is a major thing of mine. I work so hard on things to get achievements that I am scared of when people may criticize my work, warranted or not. It will always hurt, or when I am very proud of something to be dragged down by a comment which then again, it will upset me. I need to learn to not be sensitive on it and deal with it. I am going to continue to push myself to get the achievements that I want in life either RL or SL. I need to never give up and stick to what I love.
It’s funny how day by day how nothing changes. But when you look back, everything is different…
For those who I loved and lost, there is a lot of you that will always remain in my heart. Forever and always. You know who you are. To my loved ones, family and friends, you guys are everything to me. Always will be. Forever and two days. You have all given me something that in RL I have struggled to get. Love, family and friendship. I am thankful for you guys, I am thankful to the people that encourage and help me, I am thankful for the people that read my little blog and put up with my rambles, I am thankful for the air I breathe, the moment I wake up, my animals and most of all, I am thankful for life.
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Skin: Glam Affair – Katya @ The Liaison Collaborative.
Hair: Truth Hair - Carrie.
Top: Tee*fy – Lillian Halter Top @ Collabor88.
Skirt: Tee*fy – Florence Skirt @ Collabor88.
Ingenue – Pickford Heels Collabor88.
Cheeky Pea – Ansel Bird Cage Candles
GizzA – Summer Bag [Floral] (previous Arcade item).
[pIRA] – Magazine.
The Loft – Open Magazine
[we’re CLOSED] – pond deck.
[TUFF] – Blue & White Motorboat
Pose: Exposeur – Rainy Day Sitting Poses.